Things have not been bad lately but they have not been good either. I feel that I am slowly losing all self motivation.. I only do what I HAVE to do only WHEN I have to.. Which means alot of things are not being done that NEED to be done. This is not usually in my character, and it scares me. I talked to one of my employees about this and her answer was that I am TIRED of being responsible because I have had to be so long and before my time. This may hold truth but I have no time to be TIRED I have stuff to do! I have a son and I have goals that need to be met.. So the answer is simple some may think. Get up off my bum and do it huh? Well I wish it was as easy as it sounds... I really think that there may be something wrong. Or may have been something wrong. Maybe realizing it is the beginning of me getting back on track.Lord I sure hope so.. Work is a DRAG, I was getting at least 75 hours every 2 weeks I may get 45 now. So that is a strain. Isaiah is away @ my Mom's every night due to the "summer arrangement" we have. The one that helps her and me. Ever since my Mom's divorce I try to be there as much as possible for her and my siblings. Tiring at times but they are all I have. I also feel like I am missing out on being young. I don't go out and party or even hang out.. Sometimes I think that this is a good thing because of all the trouble alot of ppl my age get into being "young" I don't know if anybody is reading this please pray for me. Pray that I find the way.
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Don't put added pressure on yourself. The fact that your 22 and your CARE about these things puts you ahead of the game. most ppl ur age don't have their priorities in order no matter how good a game they talk. Simple solution (if i may suggest one)...make a list with a realistic deadline. that way you give yourself enough time and leasure to do the things, everything is accounted for. Trust me you'll feel a great sense of accomplishment as you cross the things off the list. I usually start with the easiest things to get the momentum going.
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