Did you miss me?

So it has been a few days so let's catch up..
This past wkend was great Friday I went to OKC with my bf and gambled all night. Saturday I went out to eat with the bf. Sunday I went to the zoo with my son my little brothers and my bf.
Ok so now its Tuesday I was feeling down about this weight thing until I stumbled across this blog http://tearsnomore87.blogspot.com/. This chick keeps it 100 and is not about the whining.. You have to first believe in yourself and get off your ass to make ANYTHING happen.. You have to set realistic goals and stick to them.. Realize that that one cheeseburger a week will set you back .. You have to be consistent and with consistency you will see results.. Its nothing that happens over night so you also have to be patient.. With that being said I have a new outlook on this situation and a lot better grasp.

Hair: I bantu'd my hair up Monday morning and it is still in the knots have not taken them down yet.. I will post pics when I take it down..

Productivity

So today I got some stuff done.. [WHEW].. Filled out my Fasfa and planned my classes for the upcoming semester which starts Aug. 23rd! I am so ready for these classes. The quicker I get them and take them the closer I will be to my goal.

I decided to water my grass in my front yard and whatdoyaknow.. I couldn't turn the damn water off for a cool 30 minutes. I cannot do ANYTHING in that yard to save my life.. I ended up going next door to my neighbors to get it turned off. Pitiful? Yes, I know. Not to mention I was later informed by said neighbor that I was not even supposed to be watering my grass.. [between 10am - 6pm] Sheesh!! And I was all waving to the police cars that passed by wondering why they were looking at me all crazy.. LMAO boy i tell ya!

Talked to my father today, this is a rare but refreshing occasional thing. He reminds me of myself so much even though I did not grow up around him and can probably count how many times I have been in his presence. Nonetheless, its a beautiful work in progress, a WIP!

HAIR:

I will be washing my hair today, I've worn a puff for the past few days and loved it.. Probably will rock one all next week too.

SHOPPING:

Looking for a new digital camera.. I will not be buying any clothes until I drop some of this dreadful weight.. Buying more bigger clothes will only get me comfortable.. So I will wear stuff that is too tight to remind me to shed these pounds.. It seems IMPOSSIBLE, and with stressing it prob is.. So I will be working on not stressing as much [[this shall be a task]]

Booty Doo

So I have come to the awful realization that my shape is anything but flattering, not long ago I could not lose or gain weight.. I stayed at the same size give or take 2-3 pounds.. Well here recently i have gained 15 pounds in about 6 months.. I was not happy with my size before the weight gain so u can only gander that I am MISERABLE now.. I have been working out, eating smaller portions, and cutting back on sodas and fast food.. So how has my weight changed? It has NOT I am so determined NOT to quit, but u guys it is so very HARD. All i ever think about is my weight and my size and the way clothes fit.. I am honestly exhausted by doing so. I don't know what is wrong with my stupid body but I am only 23 (soon to be 24 in Aug.) with the body of an out of shape 40 something lady. I am losing all sanity.. I am not meant to be a big girl and by looking at me you can tell. ALL of my weight is in my stomach no big flabby arms, thighs just now starting to touch with the new weight gain.. I am baffled and highly perturbed about getting this yuck off of my body.
[[This entry was to vent, share, and encourage. Maybe some of you are having or have had this issue, if so plz do share]] ;o)

The Title-less

Got up this morning and felt awesome took down my bantu knots and put em up in a puff. LOVE it! Hit the gym HARD and still feeling great afterwards.. i decided to check out someof the blogs of my KISS sisters and kick back and relax. I'll be off to pick up my lil guy pretty soon here.. In the meantime I'll be checking out more blogs (-;

Time Sure FLIES

So it has almost been an entire year since my last post.. it really does not seem that long to be honest.. Things are in constant change around me and I'm sure I'm not the only one. I am currently without a job. I have had a job since i was 16 so this is a first, and I would just like to say i HATE it... I am staying focused though and on a constant job hunt.

<3 <3IN OTHER NEWS....

HAIR: Last Perm was in early MAY but my new growth is already out of control!!!! So I decided to try new transition and non heat styles so check out
My first bantu knot...













Tell me what cha' think ;0)
AND.....


WORKOUT: @ least 1 hr on tread mill a day 5 days per week
100 Squats and 100 Jumping Jacks per day

Wow

So my workout yesterday is getting to me.. Gosh my buns are sore.. Lol, goes to show I have not used those muscles in a while.. Getting ready for work.. Dreading the fact that when I get off I need to prep for a much needed garage sale.. I could just give it all to Goodwill, but... Ok here comes the story.. A co worker of mine lost her apartment and was doing really bad and claimed she had no family to help her.. So being the kind hearted woman I am I told her she could stay with me since I have a 3 br home and was not using the room. Well she came and stayed one wkend about 6 months into her staying there and not saving any money to get back on her own two feet.. She went to visit her sister (no family, yeah right) and never returned... She left EVERYTHING.. Bed, lap top, and clothes.. Important papers and all. I asked this child to come and get her belongings numerous of times.. It has been 8 months now.. Alot of ppl say i am beyond nice and that I should have put it out on the side of the road, because she used me.. But I held on to it hoping she would come get it.. Ok so I am over being nice so now I am selling everything for a dollar. I do not care what it is... And as for the lap top and bed, well I am keeping those.. She did not pay her measly 150 in rent the last 2 months anyway..So there. O so yesterday I was off and I got alot accomplished.. I got the car washed redecorated the living room, kitchen and my br.. went on an interview and registered for University of Phoenix.. So I am proud of myself.. Not much of a day off but ah well that's how it goes..

The ppl in your life you feel you cannot live without, CAN and WILL do just fine without YOU..

Just came back from running one mile and walking another.. Showered, washed my hair, updated twitter,fb, and myspace and got to thinking.. Being a black female the longevity of our friendships are often short lived. Well about a year ago I was one of few that could say I had the same 2 bffs for 13 years. all the way through jr high and high school and so on.. Well after I had my son I was the only one with a kid, so my priorities changed from theirs so they got closer while I handled my responsibilities.. This is not to say that I did not hang out anymore but did it in moderation.. I too had a long term relationship which neither had not.. So my views on dating and the problems that go along with sticking to it also changed. Soo we were on different wave lengths.. So the moment I mess up and do something that was "wrong" I got the boot. This has never happened normally we cannot live with out talking to each other for a day.. We patched things up after THREE MONTHS, but it was never the same and now have drifted even more apart to the point we do not talk at all. This is very sad to me because I love them and I miss them being apart of my life. But at other times I'm like fuck it.. Just thought that me blogging would help release some of these feelings. Thanks for letting me share.