The ppl in your life you feel you cannot live without, CAN and WILL do just fine without YOU..

Just came back from running one mile and walking another.. Showered, washed my hair, updated twitter,fb, and myspace and got to thinking.. Being a black female the longevity of our friendships are often short lived. Well about a year ago I was one of few that could say I had the same 2 bffs for 13 years. all the way through jr high and high school and so on.. Well after I had my son I was the only one with a kid, so my priorities changed from theirs so they got closer while I handled my responsibilities.. This is not to say that I did not hang out anymore but did it in moderation.. I too had a long term relationship which neither had not.. So my views on dating and the problems that go along with sticking to it also changed. Soo we were on different wave lengths.. So the moment I mess up and do something that was "wrong" I got the boot. This has never happened normally we cannot live with out talking to each other for a day.. We patched things up after THREE MONTHS, but it was never the same and now have drifted even more apart to the point we do not talk at all. This is very sad to me because I love them and I miss them being apart of my life. But at other times I'm like fuck it.. Just thought that me blogging would help release some of these feelings. Thanks for letting me share.

What a Wkend!

So, my bday week I took off for vay-k... Well, they worked my butt off when I got back! Lol 8 days straight.. Then I had the busiest wkend.. Saturday I worked then went to my Best friend's bby daughter's 4th bday party then got my lil cuzins nails done and did her hair.. Sunday (today) I was off but no rest went shopping for my son's Isaiah uniforms for his private school/daycare.. Got him some shoes too.. Picked up my lil cousin and got her eyebrows arched.. Not to mention that it was tax free wkend so it was beyond chaotic... Then to dinner with my coworkers on my manager.. My boo spent the day with us too and it was FANTASTIC.. Love him to death.. Now I should be in the bed.. Need to get up early and get registered for class in the morning..

Call me Micheal Jordan or Lebron.. I'm so 23!

Sooo my birthday was AWESOME! Last year I said that I would just skip the day for all of eternity and not celebrate it.. But I woke up that morning and had a change of heart.. I know that some of my loved ones and even those that I do not know never got to see 23...And for them I celebrated! Didn't do much but it was enough.. My brothers sung and played drums for me (they are 6 and 9) while my son danced! This was a treat to say the least.. Then my mother took me out to lunch my boyfriend (Isaiah's father) came as well.. Red Lobster though I hated my selection the laughs were priceless. THEN my father whom I get to see only a handful of times a year if any (things are getting better) asked me to lunch... SOO me not liking my food at Red Lobster came in handy cause I was out to eat again.. This time Cheddars mmm.. Had a great time with he and his wife(she and I rarely get along).. Laughed until I cried! They are soo funny! Then I headed back home my best friend took me for drinks along with one of my coworkers... Then a very nasty turn to my day.. My best friend begged me to go to one of her jump offs house where there were supposed to be plenty of folk watching the Cowboy preseason game (i hate football) I gave in and went.. There was NO ONE there but he and his cousin.. She ended up in the back room with him screeching for an hour!!! Then I came home let the boyfriend know that I made it to my crib he came over.. And he decided to "play" when I asked him to hold me... So I went to sleep..But the times with my family outweighed the bad moments.. Shout out to all the angels! O and the party does NOT stop there.. PARTY PARTY PARTY Fri-Sun! YAAAY MEEE taking my angels with me.. Peace

Back for the 1st Time

Haven't been on lately..

I have been looking at other's blogs and I must say I feel very untalented..

And me being a true LEO I must excel in everything!

LOL, no I'm serious..

Well my birthday is coming around very soon here Thursday to be exact..

I'll be that good ole 23..

Never been 23 but I'm sure it'll be a good year for me..

Been walking every day for the past 3 days..

Which is a good stretch..

Consistency is not one of my Strong points, but I am getting better.

And being a sexier me is a goal now..

Watch out!

Stepping that up and my Blog Spot so get ready honey!

R.I.P. MJ

The tribute today was beautiful to say the least. Micheal will be missed ang his legend will live on. He touched many lives and I believe through his music this will always hold truth. Rest in Peace Mike. They finally have no choice but to leave you alone. My heart goes out to all the lives he touched and especially his family.

KEEPiNG iT 2GETHER

To say that I am family oriented is an understatement. My family means EVERYTHING to me and I would do anything in my power to protect or help each and every one of them. My family is going through some very trying times but the devil is nothing but a liar and he can't have ANY 1 of us. We have GOD on our side and with him on our team we will always prevail. Staying strong and [KEEPiNG iT 2GETHER].. I welcome your prayers.

[BRiGHTER NOTE]

I had a phone interview that went very well. And I am most confident that my economic struggle may see its last day soon. SMiLES :)

Praying 4 a New Slate

Things have not been bad lately but they have not been good either. I feel that I am slowly losing all self motivation.. I only do what I HAVE to do only WHEN I have to.. Which means alot of things are not being done that NEED to be done. This is not usually in my character, and it scares me. I talked to one of my employees about this and her answer was that I am TIRED of being responsible because I have had to be so long and before my time. This may hold truth but I have no time to be TIRED I have stuff to do! I have a son and I have goals that need to be met.. So the answer is simple some may think. Get up off my bum and do it huh? Well I wish it was as easy as it sounds... I really think that there may be something wrong. Or may have been something wrong. Maybe realizing it is the beginning of me getting back on track.Lord I sure hope so.. Work is a DRAG, I was getting at least 75 hours every 2 weeks I may get 45 now. So that is a strain. Isaiah is away @ my Mom's every night due to the "summer arrangement" we have. The one that helps her and me. Ever since my Mom's divorce I try to be there as much as possible for her and my siblings. Tiring at times but they are all I have. I also feel like I am missing out on being young. I don't go out and party or even hang out.. Sometimes I think that this is a good thing because of all the trouble alot of ppl my age get into being "young" I don't know if anybody is reading this please pray for me. Pray that I find the way.