[[LAzY GiRL]]

So I worked 13 hours yesterday and as a result I did not wake up till NooN today! 5 hours overtime! Whoo hoo! Now if I could just do that once a week! Man I tell you I would feel as if I were rolling in it! Well today has brought a sense of calm over me. And to be quite honest I can tell you why. All of a sudden I love my life. I love everything about life in general! Lifes lessons the whole kit and kaboodle. I just spoke to my father on the phone a lil while ago and I tell you it was really nice hearing from him. Seems to me as if he has gotten his life together and I am very pleased with this. && my birth father whom I love very dearly but do not know as well as i would like called and left me a vm asking me to lunch tommrow. I am a little bummed that I will not be able to join him b/c I will b at work. U would think that this is y I feel so liberated.. hearing from those two but to be honest I felt good before this. Maybe I got enought rest today,perhaps? I feel that God is working on me and those around him. >>>>> Isaiah's barber whom he has been going to since his first haircut passed over the wkend.. My uncle passed.. and about a month ago my little brother's best friend passed. I know that death happens everyday but it has seldom happened to those around me... I know that this is a blessing and I greatly appreciate it. The thing that gets me is that one was a 6 yr old, drowned.. Our barber 30 something also drowned.. U seldom expect the death of the young. Rest in Peace Jack, Bryce, and Uncle..

As of now...

Thought I might jot something down right quick before I go an pick Isaiah up from school.

Memorial Day was fun... Went to my Aun/t house... Laughted so much I got a stomach ache and

I spit my soda out all on my auntie's couch.. Damn shame... but all in all it was a really good time.

I love those girls! Dejaun went with us double (+). We came home and he cooked, watched the

game and visited his friend Jason's house. I passed out on the couch.. O and not to mention I

worked that morning and they let me off 2 hours early! So I had a Fantabolous Memorial Day!

Still Up

Well normally I am in bed.. I am VERY tired but have not yet drifted off to sleep. I still have not

seen dEjUaN... n i don't like it... Work was a lil chaotic today... did some light shopping

today then went to Rachel's bday Din Din it was nice VERY pretty place, hv to mk sure I tell the

h0n3y about it.... Isaiah's "school" situation is driving me nuts-zo... Too tired to go into depth will

be sure to on my nxt post 2mmra.. Hoping sleep falls on me soon, very soon.

@ my Aunt's for the night

So I have always been pretty aware of me being a spoiled brat...(ii go n get it myself if no one

else does). I grew up spoiled and now I spoil myself... This evening i WANTED some fried

CATFISH. I drove for 45 min to different catfish spots around Dallas and they were ALL closed

(5 diff places to b exact)... Did not get any fish and was darn near on the verge of having a bitch

fit... Now that I think about it this is kinda funny. Wow my boyfriend must REALLY love me to

put up with this... But honestly I think he thinks it is cute, being able to deliver when no one else

can. I {**heart**} him so much... I have not laid eyes on him the ENTIRE wkend! Cannot wait till I

do... Well Isaiah WAS sleep but now he is up and singing a series of songs... CATNAPS are no no

no good. This lil boy may be up till 4am.

The WEEKEND baby

So my wkend was a BLAST. Friday night I went out for drinks with my Best bud

Dion... Got all dressed up [the whole 9] We had fun we always do. Then

Saturday morn I had to go to work got off at 3:30 and it was raining really really

bad. I had to get out in it anyway because I was hosting a surprise Bday party for

a close co worker of mine. She has NEVER had a birthday party because she grew

up in foster care and what not... I heard this and HAD to do something about it...

It was cute we did a "kid" theme and everything. Came home grabbed Isaiah the

KING and went to sleep. Woke up around 10:30 this morning which is really

saying something cause I NEVER sleep past 8 nowadays. Ate a lil something

watched my FAVORITE moving [Why Do Fools Fall In Love] and put Isaiah

down for a nap and I am about to climb right behind him.... I can feel myself

slipping into a bout of depression... over simple girly stuff... [wnt longer hair,

want to lose 30 pounds etc] But if anyone is reading this pray for me... Cause

when I get in those moods.. Boy do I get //consumed// by those moods. Which

is not CUTE. Well off to my nap..

Oops my bad.

So I kinda said in my first post waaay back in October of 08 that I would keep up with this.. Yeah

so I have kind of sucked at doing so... But not to dwell on that.. I will do {better} .

Updates::

I am still a tech.. still living in the same spot.. Isaiah is 3 now and he and his father are STILL together!

**Everything is Everything** I take each day a day at a time. I have had quite a few rough

patches since the last post.. bouts of depression... wanting to give up, but the devil is {nothing}

but a liar.

I gave ALL my worries and doubts to HIM. Only trouble that I am having is completely letting

go... its a work in progress, but there is {progress} . This whole recession thing is scary to say the

least. I am currently cut down to 20 hours a week when I usually work 35+..I STILL have a

mortgage and a child to feed and not to mention OTHER bills to maintain but like i said I am

getting by. I am in a happy place in my life and refuse things to stress or get me down.Stepping

out of the way and ready to receive my blessing(s).

Numero Uno

Wow so this is my very first blog and I am excited. I believe this is waaaay over due and plan to keep up with this as much as possible. Umm about me my name is Antwanetta Marshay I am 22 yrs young have a 2 soon to be 3 year old son Isaiah Dejuan who is my heart and soul. I am in college striving to be an either Physician Assistant (PA) or a Pharmacist. I am currently a certified Pharmacy Technician here in Texas. Isaiah and his father Dejaun are still together but not yet married going 4 years strong. We are taking tings slow I mean with the divorce rate why not. He and i both agree when we get married it will be till death do us part the way it is meant to be. So we are taking time to work out kinks before we jump in head first.