R.I.P. MJ

The tribute today was beautiful to say the least. Micheal will be missed ang his legend will live on. He touched many lives and I believe through his music this will always hold truth. Rest in Peace Mike. They finally have no choice but to leave you alone. My heart goes out to all the lives he touched and especially his family.

KEEPiNG iT 2GETHER

To say that I am family oriented is an understatement. My family means EVERYTHING to me and I would do anything in my power to protect or help each and every one of them. My family is going through some very trying times but the devil is nothing but a liar and he can't have ANY 1 of us. We have GOD on our side and with him on our team we will always prevail. Staying strong and [KEEPiNG iT 2GETHER].. I welcome your prayers.

[BRiGHTER NOTE]

I had a phone interview that went very well. And I am most confident that my economic struggle may see its last day soon. SMiLES :)

Praying 4 a New Slate

Things have not been bad lately but they have not been good either. I feel that I am slowly losing all self motivation.. I only do what I HAVE to do only WHEN I have to.. Which means alot of things are not being done that NEED to be done. This is not usually in my character, and it scares me. I talked to one of my employees about this and her answer was that I am TIRED of being responsible because I have had to be so long and before my time. This may hold truth but I have no time to be TIRED I have stuff to do! I have a son and I have goals that need to be met.. So the answer is simple some may think. Get up off my bum and do it huh? Well I wish it was as easy as it sounds... I really think that there may be something wrong. Or may have been something wrong. Maybe realizing it is the beginning of me getting back on track.Lord I sure hope so.. Work is a DRAG, I was getting at least 75 hours every 2 weeks I may get 45 now. So that is a strain. Isaiah is away @ my Mom's every night due to the "summer arrangement" we have. The one that helps her and me. Ever since my Mom's divorce I try to be there as much as possible for her and my siblings. Tiring at times but they are all I have. I also feel like I am missing out on being young. I don't go out and party or even hang out.. Sometimes I think that this is a good thing because of all the trouble alot of ppl my age get into being "young" I don't know if anybody is reading this please pray for me. Pray that I find the way.

[[LAzY GiRL]]

So I worked 13 hours yesterday and as a result I did not wake up till NooN today! 5 hours overtime! Whoo hoo! Now if I could just do that once a week! Man I tell you I would feel as if I were rolling in it! Well today has brought a sense of calm over me. And to be quite honest I can tell you why. All of a sudden I love my life. I love everything about life in general! Lifes lessons the whole kit and kaboodle. I just spoke to my father on the phone a lil while ago and I tell you it was really nice hearing from him. Seems to me as if he has gotten his life together and I am very pleased with this. && my birth father whom I love very dearly but do not know as well as i would like called and left me a vm asking me to lunch tommrow. I am a little bummed that I will not be able to join him b/c I will b at work. U would think that this is y I feel so liberated.. hearing from those two but to be honest I felt good before this. Maybe I got enought rest today,perhaps? I feel that God is working on me and those around him. >>>>> Isaiah's barber whom he has been going to since his first haircut passed over the wkend.. My uncle passed.. and about a month ago my little brother's best friend passed. I know that death happens everyday but it has seldom happened to those around me... I know that this is a blessing and I greatly appreciate it. The thing that gets me is that one was a 6 yr old, drowned.. Our barber 30 something also drowned.. U seldom expect the death of the young. Rest in Peace Jack, Bryce, and Uncle..

As of now...

Thought I might jot something down right quick before I go an pick Isaiah up from school.

Memorial Day was fun... Went to my Aun/t house... Laughted so much I got a stomach ache and

I spit my soda out all on my auntie's couch.. Damn shame... but all in all it was a really good time.

I love those girls! Dejaun went with us double (+). We came home and he cooked, watched the

game and visited his friend Jason's house. I passed out on the couch.. O and not to mention I

worked that morning and they let me off 2 hours early! So I had a Fantabolous Memorial Day!

Still Up

Well normally I am in bed.. I am VERY tired but have not yet drifted off to sleep. I still have not

seen dEjUaN... n i don't like it... Work was a lil chaotic today... did some light shopping

today then went to Rachel's bday Din Din it was nice VERY pretty place, hv to mk sure I tell the

h0n3y about it.... Isaiah's "school" situation is driving me nuts-zo... Too tired to go into depth will

be sure to on my nxt post 2mmra.. Hoping sleep falls on me soon, very soon.

@ my Aunt's for the night

So I have always been pretty aware of me being a spoiled brat...(ii go n get it myself if no one

else does). I grew up spoiled and now I spoil myself... This evening i WANTED some fried

CATFISH. I drove for 45 min to different catfish spots around Dallas and they were ALL closed

(5 diff places to b exact)... Did not get any fish and was darn near on the verge of having a bitch

fit... Now that I think about it this is kinda funny. Wow my boyfriend must REALLY love me to

put up with this... But honestly I think he thinks it is cute, being able to deliver when no one else

can. I {**heart**} him so much... I have not laid eyes on him the ENTIRE wkend! Cannot wait till I

do... Well Isaiah WAS sleep but now he is up and singing a series of songs... CATNAPS are no no

no good. This lil boy may be up till 4am.